Post by adam on Feb 14, 2008 22:35:40 GMT -5
I have been with the same woman for 19 years now. We finally married last April.
I made a huge mistake.
Back in 2000, I cheated on her. I did it again in 2001. To make it worse, I took pictures and hid them in a closet at my mothers house. I went back some time later to find and destroy the pictures, but they were missing. I came to Boston ahead of my wife and son for a better job, to improve our lives. Last Saturday night, my wife was at my mothers house, having dinner, and went in to her closet. She found the pictures. I will admit, they are raunchy. Divorce may happen, or she may forgive me. It is too soon to tell, as both men and women do not get over this kind of thing easily, no matter how long ago it happened. In her eyes, I am a liar, and nothing I say is to be believed. I love that woman with all my heart. I stopped what I was doing in the past because I felt that if I was to give her and our son all of the attention I was already giving them as well as the attention that I was not, then things would improve, and they did, dramatically. We really got close over the years and things were great. But the pictures still surfaced, and now things look pretty gloomy for all of us. I with I could go back and never do what I did, but I can not change that.
Face it, there is no way to get away with the wrong thing, and even if there was, you dont want to go there. It is never worth it. Even though I stopped, I have felt guilty over it for almost a decade now. Even if she never found out, I would still have it in the back of my mind that I did something terrible. It took a while to stop feeling sick to my stomach over what I did, and now it may take years, and that's if I'm lucky, to get my wife to forgive me.
I made a huge mistake.
Back in 2000, I cheated on her. I did it again in 2001. To make it worse, I took pictures and hid them in a closet at my mothers house. I went back some time later to find and destroy the pictures, but they were missing. I came to Boston ahead of my wife and son for a better job, to improve our lives. Last Saturday night, my wife was at my mothers house, having dinner, and went in to her closet. She found the pictures. I will admit, they are raunchy. Divorce may happen, or she may forgive me. It is too soon to tell, as both men and women do not get over this kind of thing easily, no matter how long ago it happened. In her eyes, I am a liar, and nothing I say is to be believed. I love that woman with all my heart. I stopped what I was doing in the past because I felt that if I was to give her and our son all of the attention I was already giving them as well as the attention that I was not, then things would improve, and they did, dramatically. We really got close over the years and things were great. But the pictures still surfaced, and now things look pretty gloomy for all of us. I with I could go back and never do what I did, but I can not change that.
Face it, there is no way to get away with the wrong thing, and even if there was, you dont want to go there. It is never worth it. Even though I stopped, I have felt guilty over it for almost a decade now. Even if she never found out, I would still have it in the back of my mind that I did something terrible. It took a while to stop feeling sick to my stomach over what I did, and now it may take years, and that's if I'm lucky, to get my wife to forgive me.
